Cant believe ive actually been doing this for a year.
When i first started this blog, i was doing it to see if i could make some money selling relationship information, but since ive been blogging, i havent made any money but you will not believe the kind of stuff that has happened to me ever since i created this blog.
When i look at the shit that ive done since last year around this time it just makes me want to say damn lol.
Within this year i almost got married to a person i met on the internet (actually went to get the rings and get the marriage liscence).
I was homeless for a few months because i got in a fight with my sister and she put me out.
I cured myslef of four different illnesses (one many people believe to be fatal) using almost exclusively herbs and foods.
And i got my own place with the help of some good people.
Im still fucked up in the game but things are looking up.
I gotta tell yall something though.
Im nothing like the person i portray on this blog.
Im a broke ass, baby boy at 27 years old.
I have lived in the ghetto all my life.
I never held a full time job for longer than six months in my adult years.
I am comfortable living below the poverty line for now, so i can go to the libraries and learn whatever i want whwnever i want.
My problem is that i am comfortable where i am.
I dont give a shit about material objects, having a whole bunch of women, or being popular.
I just want to be comfortable.
I have a great desire to help black people to solve our own problems and rid ourselves of the oppression of white and asian men but my desire to be comfortable overpowers that dream.
I am constantly in a state of chaos.
I am painfully insecure about my looks.
I dont wanna do shit and im not mad about that.
Im so used to living under stressful conditions i dont even know if i can function properly in a "normal" situation.
I need some serious help lol.
I cant actually believe im telling yall this stuff.
I hate disclosing personal information about myself unless its positive.
But i pride myself on being smart.
I know and have done things that most people in this world think is impossible.
I should be in jail by now, and i definately shouldnt know what i know.
I have overcome every obstacle that was ever put in front of me.
The only thing left now is to be financially stable and to be a construtive member of society.
I want to thank yall for leaving comments and for making my day brighter with your heartfelt words.
Hopefully i'll be able to do this for a little while longer.
this was my first blog post